Today, I want to move back home to Austin.
It’s been awhile since I’ve felt this way – so there is definitely some celebration in that. Seriously, there is – I’m not just being optimistic – God-knows that’s near-impossible for me anyways. So despite the general tone of this post – I am also reminding myself that hopefully these days will get fewer and farther between.
But today is one of those days. Perhaps it was getting lost on my way to the main post office three times. Or the fact that I had to go to the main post office because my tiny apartment mailbox got full with other people’s mail (my old mailbox never got full, nor did I get other people’s mail and dangit – I miss my house). Or that I woke up 4-5 times coughing last night because of allergies/super-dry-air and I’m tired of not feeling good and just plain tired. Or that it’s beautiful and about 90 degrees outside and I miss that and there are no snow cones to be found here. And no fireflies west of the Rockies either.
Or maybe it’s because I heard a gorgeous sermon yesterday at Kevin’s church, and it’s been forever since I heard one of those. Well, except that I was in Austin last Sunday for Carrie’s ordination and that was a beautiful, beautiful sermon. Or maybe it’s that my birthday is coming up and there’s nothing like a birthday around people who love you, and most of the ones I know live 1700+ miles away. And I just got back from there.
But this too shall pass. I just got done telling the new Stanford graduates this week that I think it takes at least a year or year and a half to make the transition out of college. I thought I’d get bonus time for being so far out of college and having a grip on my life. But, I guess not. It’s always easier to tell other people what it’ll be like than to live it oneself!
Thinking back, I know there were hard things about moving to Austin 10 years ago. You long-time friends can feel free to remind me of those in the comments. It’s never easy to make new friends, or find a new church, or learn a town whose streets change names at every other intersection (Austin, not here). I like to think that it was easier 10 years ago though, when so few of my friends were married and had no kids, when they had more time. To be fair, I also wasn’t trying hard to finish a master’s degree back then. But, this too shall pass. Or at least, I hope I’ll pass my classes. 🙂
This too shall pass. I don’t think I’ll forget how to get to the main post office again. Hopefully it’ll be another long while before I have a whole day where I want to move home. But hey, I thought of something that I don’t miss from Austin. Giant roaches. I haven’t seen any here, and for that I’m really glad. Just thinking about them gives me the shivers.
A few weeks ago I taught on Elijah (the super-prophet). So in line with that, for now, I’m gonna go make a breakfast taco for myself and drink a Mexican coke. Then, a nap if I need it. And then I’ll talk to God. I heard he knows all about Austin. 😉 It’ll get easier to BREATHE here too.