when it rains, it pours. the past few weeks have been so painful. i can’t/won’t elaborate here – there’s really just too many different things. but i am working on trusting what God said to Jeremiah – that guy had it super-hard. nobody ever listened to him even though God tolk him to preach. but this is what God said… it’s taped on my mirror.
“Life is difficult, Jeremiah… Are you going to live cautiously or courageously? I called you to live at your best, to pursue righteousness, to sustain a drive toward excellence. It is easier, I know, to be nerutoic. It is easier to be parasitic. It is easier to relax in the embracing arms of The Average. Easier, but not better. Easier, but not more significant. Easier, but not more fulfilling. I called you to a life of purpose far beyond what you think yourself capable of living and promised you adequate strength to fulfill your destiny. Now at the first sign of difficulty you are ready to quit… What is it you really want, Jeremiah, do you want to shuffle along with this crowd, or run with the horses?”
from eugene peterson’s run with the horses.
God, help me.
in other news, yesterday, i met an austin garbage picker. brad and i were throwing stuff away at the dumpster outside lantern lanes and met a guy named rusty. he was pulling cans out of the dumpster so that he could make some money. he was totally trying to make an honest living, but talked about how he couldn’t find work because of an injury, and because the day labor place (51st and 35) never had enough work. (day labor is a place where ppl without jobs can go to try and get work, and where people who need help with different jobs – contractors, people moving, doing yardwork whatever can hire folks for the day or for a few hours).
it made me think. if i couldn’t work at my trade b/c of an injury, would i be honest enough to dig through dumpsters for cans? i am reading ‘good news about injustice’ again, and it talks about how injustice takes away people’s dignity. and watching rusty, a 49 year old man with a college degree dig out of a dumpster so he could pay rent on his very small room was just a shadow of seeing a place where 30,000 people live and work to scavenge through smokey mountain in manila. God hates it when we take away people’s dignity. read amos. He gets angry at injustices then and now.
God, help us.